So today somehow things kept getting worse, for some reason I am not coping with the pain at all and it frustrates me that I am not able to cope when I think I should be able to. I have tried so many things this week, deep breathing, thinking of other things, moving, nothing seems to work and I'm not sleeping which doesn't help either.

After one of my numerous falls this week I have stuffed the lead of my TENS machine and it stops working as soon as I put it in my pocket. This has had a huge impact on my pain coping strategies and not helping at all. Why does life have to be so hard? Is it not hard enough already?

I ended up in tears (yet again-I lost count today) in one of my lab tutors offices. She was lovely, TENS are her thing and she knew just what to do, rang a place to help me order a new lead (will take 2-3 days to arrive) and set me up with a temporary one that is not as good as mine but hopefully will be better than nothing.

I went to lab after having calmed down a bit but I had such a headache and couldnt focus on the complexities of the shoulder joint, hopefully tomorrow I will be able to concentrate better.
One of my friends kept accidentally kicking my foot under the table and every time she did I jumped and cried out in pain, it just wasn't my day!

All I can hope for is that I sleep tonight and am able to get through my clinical placement in the morning, I am dreading it as I have to disclose my "risk of falling" and I really dont feel very comfortable with how to do it without making it a big deal. Why does life have to be so complicated?


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Jess said...

Sorry to hear you're having a hard time at the moment. I hope the cord for your TENS unit comes quickly so you can get back to your normal routine. Keep up the mirror work and I hope you feel better soon :-)