Today I was reminded that the world is still full of goodness. How did I ever think for a second that giving up was an option?

I bought a new pretty top with some money I got given for my birthday way back (its a cute summer top I've been looking at for ages and they finally had a sale).

I spent a rewarding morning in a rest home with patients who at age over 85 are still full of life and an inspiration to anyone wondering whether to keep pushing on.

And I have been honoured with the offer of becoming a God mother! A wee baby is on the way and I am the luckiest person in the world and feel so humbled that I have been given the honour of becoming another precious baby's God mother.
Baby is only 10 weeks, due end of March so I have plenty of time to prepare some special gifts and watch over Mum to be. We had just recently started aqua fitness classes together and these are especially good for expectant mothers so I am going to make sure we continue going as it will be so good for her.

How could I have ever doubted my life and thought I was not worthy? I was beginning to loose all my confidence and self worth but now I feel like I mean something, that I am important and can make a difference-God bless life!


Tough Cookie said...

Sweetpea!!! I've missed you! Life is full of ups and downs, and with RSD, those ups and downs are magnified...and sometimes the downs out number the ups. With grad school starting, I am creating a new normal for myself once again. My new normal will involve more pain because my life is becoming more demanding, and I have no choice in the matter. It sucks, it's frustrating, but this is OUR new normal, love bug. We aren't allowed to give up. You have too much to offer to give up.

Remember that I am here for you. Only an e-mail away.

All summer I sent e-mails out to see if any magazine or tv show would give a poop about RSD. I got lucky!

Lisa Moon said...

Glad to hear you're having some positives in your life, too. :)

I agree with the ups and downs being magnified when you live with chronic pain, and I can sure relate to feeling like it's hopeless, and wanting to give up.

But you WILL be able to help others so much with your work. Think of the level of empathy you'll bring, which will mean so much to your clients who come for help.

Alessea said...

Thank you both so much for your support, I really appreciate it and it helps me keep going because I know you are there walking it with me.

I'll get there one day I just wish I didnt have to work so damn hard!