Nothing like a good kidnapping to set the world to rights...

First of all I want to say, last week was a particularly hard week but that happens, and its going to continue to happen because that's how life goes. I just hope that with practice I get through them a bit better than the last one went. Thank you all so much for the support you show and continue to show me. Knowing I have people near and far who care about how I am going brings a smile to my face, and well, what is life without smiles and friends?

Come Friday I was about done with trying, frankly I was pretty tired and frustrated with myself, somehow being 'needy' was unacceptable. I went to see my student adviser K and she really helped me sort out a few things that had really been messing with my head. Once again I feel justified about needing help and think I can start asking for it again. I also semi believe that I am a 'coper', I was really worried that she would think I was not seen as I pretty much end up in tears every time we meet up.
A surprise was waiting for me after my appointment (actually I think it tickled a few innocent observers lol), I was 'kidnapped' by a person kind enough to send me several messages when she thought she may have missed me (but no, I spent longer with K than expected, but that was because I really needed to talk) anyways meeting me in reception was Jo who quickly hurried me off to catch the bus, and thoughtful kidnapper that she is, even paid for my bus fare. We took the bus to her hideout and I got to relax for a whole afternoon.
Those hours in the sun, away from the stresses of uni, home, everything reminded me how to relax again...something I have been needing to do for a while I think.

That wasn't all the kidnapping involved...lunch at some point, photo journeys and a pretty huge surprise in the way of a belated birthday gift too. One so special that it will involve a few posts all of its own over the next week or two (I forewarned you) as I have a bit to say about them.

The world is now a brighter place once again (and being locked out of the house for over an hour Friday night didn't dampen my happiness either).

Jo
You are amazing, a wonderful friend, around you I feel safe, I feel like my load is lightened and I know I don't have to play pretend. You are like the big sister I never had, just being with you and knowing you are never too far away makes me not feel so alone. You make me stronger and a simple hug from you scares away the fear that sometimes threatens to overwhelm me. You never have expectations, we don't even have to talk but just being in your presence creates a certain calmness that is hard to describe.
I thank God so much for sharing you with me, I know that your life is pretty tough on so many levels and the fact you can still share yourself with me, the way that you do, well there are no words that describe just how much you mean to me.
May God be with you
All my love
Butterfly